Destined or should I say planned.

Do you believe in destiny? As i was looking back, reminiscing my childhood I got interested on asking what its all about. Destiny define as "an event (or a course of events) that will inevitably happen in the future". I also remembered my high school days when I was asked "what do you think you'll become after 5 or 10 years?" It was way back too far from the present but now I can see myself how I become.

We never chose the family we want to grow with. They are part of the Master's plan that we dont have any control of. As the moment we open our eyes they were already there no matter who or where they are from. When all I knew was crying, giggling, eating and sleeping as little baby I have no idea what would I become or whats in stored for me in the future. As human we have our instincts and we are capable on doing things without no one telling us. But the kind of life ahead of us are beyond our instincts and knowledge. Is there really someone out there who knows our future?

There are no identical people. Not even twins, triplets or alike. We are born in a different circumstances. Some were born with golden spoon and some doesn't even have a spoon.
I describe myself as not that too fortunate. Yes, I'm surrounded by good people that creates every part of me. But I was also designed from the hardships and challenges that whenever I look back at it I could still taste the bitterness and also the sweetness of its effect. It was tough.
There are times I wanted to choose a different life, different family a different me. Wishing that it was just a nightmare that whenever I wake up, it'll all be gone. I always dream to have a perfect life like everyone does. But sometimes too much expectations yield to frustrations and disappointments. I started questioning if I was destined to have a good future why is there a need to feel doomed. Life was not too easy for me. At a young age I have to work hard to get what I need because theres no room to get what I want. I thought I was forbidden, thought I was left behind. I envy, I complain, I grudge.

Time came and I told myself enough of that crap!! Enough on asking "why" and start on thinking "how". Stop grouching, stop hating. I realized that i had overlooked an important part. That is the maker of the plan, the maker of the destiny. Every circumstances have their purposes. Everything will work together for good for those who love Him. I forgot the meaning of being silent, that is "to listen". Listen that can only be heard with understanding, understanding that allures appreciation then on moving on.

Time had passed by and Im now looking at myself, how I'd become and who I am now. I may not be wealthy but im not dissatisfied. Life may still be hard but I believe Im safe.I have wept in the pass but it doesnt mean Im weak in my future. I may cry now but I can laugh tomorrow. I've been more thankful how my past drew me to be Me. It might be my destiny but moreover it was His plan.